I haven't done anything art related in such a long time, I really feel like a part of me is missing somewhere.
Lost in the crap of this world... My life is very odd indeed.
A strange mix of complete introversion and flirting with beautiful women.
We all have odd lives I think.. We just don't know how to tell other people just how odd they have become, in fear it is us alone suffering from the invasive peculiarity of existence. And we will accidentally reveal our true status as freaks to one another and become pariah, more so than before, in our little social circles.
But I don't really have close social circles of any kind.. I have one big social conveyor belt. Where I get to strike up short conversations and kind of pseudo friendships of the sort Tyler Durden wouldn't call single serving friends. Only these single serving friends are stuck on a sushi bar belt on a slow weekly cycle.
I do not know how to form proper relationships. I feel utterly broken sometimes.